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I think truth is a rainbow. Yes. They say when you see someone's true colors you're really seeing them. And to see someone's true colors means to see the truth. So truth must be many colors. Don't ya think? 

                                    —my favorite actress, Parker Posey, in Dinner at Fred's

                 

Either The Muppet Show has me thinking about life, or life has me thinking about The Muppet Show.  That’s the way it goes for me, and all of me is in my poems, muppoems.  


TV has told me things my entire life, and my voice instinctively reflects this.  To pull a Whitman, to truly do so, my favorite television show had to be there with me, if even indirectly.  I remember hearing the “Rainbow Connection” in The Muppet Movie for the very first time because I instantly became curious as to what it meant, where exactly it was, and when and how I was going to find it "someday."  

 


Now, at my life’s mid-point, I determined to create an answer for myself.  I assigned an element and color of the rainbow to correspond with each season of The Muppet Show: 



Each poem has its own poetic temperature from the the experiences received after a transmission.  Each is separate with absolutely nothing to do with each other, or The Muppet Show, or the guest star.  Not really.  Some poets might write a piece after being in a certain setting, and The Muppet Show has continually proven to be a springboard for my imagination.  Just as one need not go to the exact geographical location of the poet to have an understanding of the poem, one need not watch the show in order to have an understanding of my work.

 

Some have criticized that I am using The Muppet Show as a “shield” to talk about my emotions.  I overcame this after discovering the work of James Joyce and T.S. Eliot.  I realized my work is very modern and stems from a similar vein.  In Graham Robb’s biography of the rebel, Rimbaud, he notes that "experiments with language are also investigations into the self."  


 


Each poem’s subject matter comes from a feeling about my life and the world that an episode emoted in me, or that I related back to the show.  The words I use to express myself are often references to the guest star’s work or the show’s content, yet each individual poem is its own island.  What can I say?  I love the variety show format.  The connection thread between all of them is my queer voice.  Essentially, I am dealing with relationship issues with the lenses of life, and as an obsessive person, I cannot live hiding that I have a neurosis from the media.

 

I was a worrywart as a child.  When I got older, it never went away, and like many people, I deal with depression, anxiety, paranoia, shame, and the whole gambit of emotions that cause me to think negatively.  Despite all the things I have to be grateful for, I feel like life has taught me to be fearful.  I don’t know if this will ever go away, but in growing up, I’ve learned coping mechanisms.


 


I’ve met a lot of people, and the majority of which find that the Muppets bring joy.  I think that is one reason why I’ve always gravitated towards them, and why they found their way to be this writer’s Muses.  No matter how dark my mind can go in any of my poems, their existence allows me not to lose my sense of humor and hope.  The critical part of my brain wants to tell me that the Muppets have given me a false sense of idealism.  Discovering rainbow connections have helped me to remain positive and not give into that sense of doubt.  The belief in a higher interconnected power is what serendipity has done for me.  People often ask me, "well what does it mean?"  In my past, I used to think that I could interpret the "signs."  Now, I know better. 


I have had too many connections to share here on this page, but one universal one that I love to suggest to people to experience is the Dark Side of the Rainbow phenomenon.  If you play Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon with Jim Henson's favorite movie, The Wizard of Oz, starting at the third roar of the MGM lion, you will discover synchronicity (even without smoking marijuana).  


I started this project to find connections within myself, but since then, I have built a stronger belief system in hidden magics.  I have discovered that author, James Redfield, calls the coincidences, "insights."  I then discovered author, Milan Kundera, who calls them "fortuities."  For me, I've always called them "connections."  If by some strange coincidence someone reads a poem and then watches its corresponding episode of The Muppet Show, well I would definitely be curious to hear what type of connection occurs. 


 


Frogs & Pigs    Black & White    God & Science

Destiny & Choice    Dreams & Reality 

Poetry & Television


Different things 
belong together. 


To take the advice of Jim Henson and be simple, this project is a collage of love letters to all the music & musicals & manuscripts & movies & multimedias that have played a part in coloring my life.  Fuzziness aside, perhaps one day it may serve as a warning to others of how powerful the media machine truly is.